we were made for not this.

bummer.

the coolest thing to me about reading in the old testament is seeing myself in it. it's forever ago, but the consistency and truth of God is so real when i can identify with these issues of serious foreeeever ago.

constantly in this section the things we were made for keep getting ruined. slowly it's all gone, and it's now all an uphill battle to get where we were meant to be. and it's so real because i can relate to all of it.

3:3 makes me giggle. don't even touch it. God knows us so well. we are soo susceptible to temptation, and He's prepared for that, He warns us ahead of time just don't even kind of do it. that makes me think of interactions with my 2nd graders... i know if i tell them to raise their hand they will also shout out and squirm, so i say raise a quiet hand. i'm trying to prevent the issue as much as possible. but still, they scream and squirm. it is inevitable that we fall into what seems like it will make things better at the time... that goes into 3:6, how often do i also convince myself that what i know is not good will bring some benefit? man, it is just frustrating how innate and continuous these inclinations to sin are. it is ridiculous.

the first spot i see us begin to lose what we were made for is 3:7... as soon as we indulge in sin we run to cover ourselves up. pushing anyone we had let in to our lives quickly and nicely out so that they can't see the mess. but, we were made for relationship. we were not made to do it alone or to wear these masks.

then, everyone thinks everyone else was the problem. and we all are centered on ourselves. we were made to live together and to care for each other and help each other. now, we care about ourselves.

...and her husband will rule over her. this love that adam had for eve was the most beautiful thing evver. and now, to love her that way, will be a serious battle. and she's going to make it worse for him to by fighting him for leadership. he was meant to guide, to lead, to care... and now he is inclined to rule. wompppp womppp.

as discouraging as this is, our God does not stop with His beautiful, amazing love. He runs in, gets them out of this garden where they would only get into more trouble, and gives them clothes. He immediately begins to cover their mess. He knew this was going to happen, but really, He had to be a little bummed when it actually happened. God is so constant. that may be one of my favorite things about Him. He never falters to love us harrrrd and to provide for us in our mess. mmmm, good.

in the midst of our sin, our mess and failure... the fact that we are His children is so beautiful to me. we clearly need Him, and need Him intently. i hate how quickly i forget that.



semi-silly question:


so, before eve got that wonderful effect of painful child birth... how was this all going to happen? was her body already created in the way to give birth that it happens now, but just it gained pain now? or was it all different? the fact that our bodies are so intricate and perfectly made for all of this, its weird to think that He suddenly changed something about them.